TIME WILL TELL

This entry is dedicated to mama and papa,although I know you won't be able to read this but I hope you know how much I love you guys *hugs*
After having kids of my own,I know I owe a lot of things from my parents,their dedication,their unconditional love,the hopes and doa....(tears are streaming as I'm typing these down)very  emotional for me to talk bout my parents...Looking back at what I've achieved as person,mother ,wife,daughter,daughter in-law,friend,neighbour,colleague...etc,etc..I have a long way to go in becoming a better person,to have a better relationship with everyone,even with my kids..I'm not sure how I'm able to achieve that,it's not easy.Being someone that is quite emotional at times like me,sensitive about issues that is close to my heart....I know it's not easy for people to understand me,who am I really??(I'm so not in the right state of mind right now,babbling like someone so lost)
I was chatting with my friend about something when I realised how my parents had raised me to become who I am right now...I'm not going to spill the details as it might sound like I'm bragging(riak)...but I'm really thankful to have learned sooo much from my parents,Alhamdulillah.
I'm learning everyday,about people and how they lead their lives ma,pa...Papa always tells me"it takes so many people to make the world Na..."..and I will never forget.(miss u pa)Whenever I'm down,I will read the poem you shared with me  Pa..to gather my strength and to know that you are always there for me,makes me feel so much better.I'd like to share this poem here,hopefully my dear friends/readers will like it too:-)

Time will tell for TIME tells all
Just wait and time will show-
but bit by bit the truth comes out,
And in the end we see-
Who are right and who was wrong
Time tells eventually

So if you are misunderstood-
Your feelings try to hide.
If you took the wisest course,then you will be justified....
Remember that the other person may be right as well.
So don't pursue the argument.
Be patient,time will tell.

I have my papa to turn to when I'm down and I have my mama to ask for strength and wisdom.I can never repay them in any way and I'll forever be indebted to them for all the good things that I'm blessed with right now,alhamdulillah.
May Allah swt blessed our parents with good health and many more years with us.To my dear friends whose parents are no more with us here,Al-Fatihah to their souls and may they rest in peace.

moving on.......

Have you ever experienced something so hurtful until you just can't let it out of your mind?So bad that you keep on dwelling about it,keep talking about it...How do you let it go?How do you move on?

I maybe good at telling someone to "move on","don't look back""God is great"...I too have issues on moving on not so long ago...but now I think I have move on and am happier that I did.I wished I can help this person that I really care for to move on with her life,to cherish the blessings that Allah swt has blessed her and to live her life but I can only wish.It's she who have to make that move...:(

(semoga dia dikurniakan hidayah untuk meneruskan kehidupan dengan hati yg terbuka dan tenang)

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if tomorrow never comes

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Salam everyone...I was about to sleep  when this came to mind..What if tomorrow never comes..??I looked into my husbands face,marissa's and muaz's...and I asked myself,if my time is up..have I showed them how much they mean to me?Have I been a good mum  and that person that my husband wants..
So many "what if's" came to mind,what if I lose my sight,I won't be able to look at their beautiful faces again,if I lose my hearing,I wont be able to hear their voices...and so many more what if's...nauzubillahiminzallik..
I'm thankful for what I have and I hope I will remember how fortunate I am to have so many good things in my life.Yang,Marissa and Muaz...I love you.Mama,Papa,kaklong ,aza..I love you.My good friend Ame,thank you for being there for me always ;)..my inlaws,mak n abah..terima kasih atas kepercayaan,and to everybody who knows me,thank you for letting me be part of your beautiful life.

lazy + stress+mix up+mess up mind and feelings mode..

Salam people.....Alhamdulillah...Although my mind is clouded by so many inputs,good and back for the past one week,I'm still here,still breathing,still able to kiss my kids and my husband,of course..still able to hear them playing+fighting with each other..Alhamdulillah.
I dunno what to blog about.I had lunch at a garden cafe called Aunty Aini's..(google it)with old friends,we used to work at the same place.Catch up on things..and few topics were raised,botox,implant,halal,haram...:)
What do you think?It's very simple to me..whatever is stated in the Holy Quran,I will follow,insyaAllah.It says haram,so haram it is.It says wear your hijab properly(cover your chest)then that's the way you wear it..InsyaAllah.It says,follow your husbands wishes as long as he doesn't ask you to do bad things then do it,InsyaAllah.What if you're not covered but your hubby wishes you to?Would you ask him to wait?This can be a very sensitive issue,no offense to anyone ya..
I met two other old colleagues at Starbucks,Gardens MV..we talked about the same thing.I can only doa that she will wear her hijab soon,such a wonderful person.
I also was tested by Allah swt...made me zombie for days(till now)but still trying to make myself strong and praying that ada hikmahnye disebalik semua ini.Kept telling myself,Allah takkan aniaya kita,kita yg aniaya diri sendiri and disebalik setiap ujian,yakinlah ada hikmahNya..wallahualam.
I'm telling myself,rezeki Allah yg bagi,InsyaAllah.