Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
- are you happy with your job?
- are you happy with your spendings?
- are you always short of money every month?
- have you been to anywhere(holidays/getaways)for the past 1 year?
- do you have that special someone to share your happy and sad moments?
- do you still hold any grudges against anyone?
- do you still blame other people on the "mistakes"that you make?
- when is the last time you visit any mosques/surau/church/temple?
- when was the last time that you prayed?
- when was the last time you "mengaji "Al-Quran(for the muslims)
- when was the last time you say your thanks to your parents?
- when was the last time you held hands with your spouse?
- when was the last time you have a decent meal with your loved ones?
This list can go on forever..these lists comes to my mind as i'm typing.I never wrote down any list before.I asked myself some of these questions to myself..just to check on myself..to improve myself on all aspects of mylife.I personally think that if my life havent change for the past 1 year than i have to do some changes.If i feel that my bank accounts doesnt allow me to spend so much,i wont.If i feel that i've been spending too much on takeouts or unnecessary things,then i make changes.I'm a homemaker,with two toddlers.Yes i do have a side income but i like to do some reality check on myself sometimes.All in all i still think we have to go back to our basics(agama).I strongly believe that if we live according to our religion and faith,things will change for the better.I always like to remind myself that all this is just a "loan".You,me,my beloved husband,kids and other family members,beloved friends..loaned to us for a certain period of time..and we dont know when is our turn to "leave"this world.So,make the best of it.Change...i have to change..
I have a lot to change,i hope i'm strong enough to change it.I know that i can change for the better.If we shut our eyes,our ears and our hearts to change for the better...things will always be like this for us..it will never change.If anyone of you out there have a perfect life...help someone to change their life for a better life...help to bring a smile or put a hope in their hearts that there is a better future for them.
I'm not sure that this post make any sense..i sure hope you guys understand what i'm trying to say...
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Assalamualaikum everyone.I was sooo extremely tired that i couldnt move my limbs...but i experienced a new episode in my humble life..Marissa went for her first day of preschool!!yeay!!It's not like a normal preschool,i sent her to vital years.It was actually an asessment class for her,trial class.I wanted a trial class so that i know wat my daughter wants.If she's not happy there then i wont enrol her.Alhamdulillah she enjoyed her 1st session and she actually passed the 1st stage of assesment.Her teacher told me that she's very independent,friendly and she can recognise and memorise very fast.Alhamdulillah,syukur.I infact notice that after her first day at school,she actually become more polite and she follow instructions well...alhamdulillah.Not that marissa was very naughty but she can be very stubborn at times..but she's still my sweet,sweet baby.This is new to us both my husband and me,our precious lil princcess is already in schooll...:( sad,mixed feelings.I know i'm going to miss her,maybe i sound like a sick mom or something,everybody goes through this right but i like to make mine sound more dramatic..I KNOW i'm going to miss her.
Marissa,if you're reading this one day,mummy want you to know that ayah and I are very proud of you and we love you verry much..."bigger than the ocean,bigger than the universe"(my tagline when i hug her )I'm sure Muaz loves you and was proud of you too.He actually misses you when you were in school :)
okies for now.I have to get going..my neighbours having a wedding..waiting for muaz to get up and get him ready.
take care y'all.
Friday, April 24, 2009
yess..Alhamdulillah..i'm so blessed.I hope when Marissa is all grown up and if she gets married,i doakan she'll have someone yg baik and understanding,not fussy,gentle,soft spoken and responsible hubby...just like her ayah.Aminnn...
There's a wediing tomorrow nite after isyak,my neighbours 21 yrs old daughter,the bongsu in the family is getting married.So,its like a tradition of the people here to gotong royong,peel the onions,garlic,ginger..etc...they do everything together from scratch.The neighbours here still practice this gotong royong thing which sometimes its fun and sometimes its not..to me.
Its verrrryyy tiring.I'm not looking forward to the cooking part..hey..sorry mates.I dont like the idea of having to sacrifice my childrens need,just to cook for a wedding.I meani know they would understand,they always do ;)
Muaz is still breastfeeding and i'm not the type to do it infront of the whole world you know what i mean?hehehehe....
So..tomorrow i'll wake up and do the normal thing and maybe i have to go and see a friend or maybe i have to "cook"with thy neyberrs..we'll seee....
till then adiossss..nite folks.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
But now,i'm like this lazy ass mom(excuse my language),demanding more time to myself,not reading enough with my kids and i dont like this "new" me.Muaz is showing a lot of interest in books and yes we never fail to go to MPH on every outing but i still think i'm not giving enough.I'm exhausted and i dont know why i kinda take things lightly..
actually i hate to admit this but i think i know the reasons behind it all.I have other things to do.I have other thing for me to do for myself..is it bad?no..i dont think so..i do need to do my own things..right mommies.A happy mommy makes a happy family.
I just have to be more organized..no late nites(as if!!)
less skyping with baby blu and less berangan..dalam otak ni how to make more money???
that is soooo bad!poor marissa n muaz..mommy not giving you the attention you soo deserve.I will change,i want to change and i want to change it for me n my beloved family.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
I'm feeling great,feeling positive today.May this day and everyday will be a great day for me and my loved ones.My other half and my terrible two and terrible four is still sleeping ;).Going to make breakfast shortly.marissa loves bread with kaya..Heart shpae kaya bread mum..i can hear her saying it.so..gtg before they wakes up.have a great day mommies!!